“I am capable of a lot of love,” is what you said; and my heart skipped a beat before crashing to the floor.
You weren’t talking about me. You and I are no more.
Your future missy, whoever she may be, has my blessings and my wellwishes too.
But, most importantly, I pray she can give all that love back to you.
You darling man, you are so special it’s almost funny how you don’t know,
Your own worth; your character, your sense of honor, your honesty and your trust;
I am so grateful to God that he led me to you, if only for a simple tryst.
You are capable of so much love, it will almost be too much to handle;
I am glad though that I was the reason you recognized that part of your personality,
Regardless of how much I wish I could be at the receiving end of that love,
What we had I shall always cherish; It was enough
To last a lifetime, to create memories that will never grow old;
Everyday I pass without you by my side,
I pour all that love for you into the future I now keep in sight;
It is a future with only me, which is not truly very surprising now;
Since, to quote you, “you have spoiled me to be honest,
and I can take no more bullshit or drama for anyone anymore”
Who’s going to settle for that?
No one, I’m sure.
So I’m working on building a small world for myself,
Where only I will be (along with a few loved ones, obviously)
I may look at children and yearn for one of my own
But then I remember you,
and my heart recoils from the thought of making babies with anyone else;
regardless of what the future holds,
I wish you the best of luck and your lady love,
Even though, secretly, my heart yearns for the love you’re capable of giving…
For the love I have not yet known.