So much pain; It is everywhere
This deep, dense fog – it obscures everything around me.
I can’t see through this haze of pain you’ve left me with –
I keep replaying the moment I let you leave.
Maybe it was my fault; it must have been
You really did try you best –
But sometimes, one just can’t win.
I’m grateful you had the courage to tell me the truth.
About how your feelings have undergone a change – how you’ve evolved.
Now, here I am, left with only my memories of you.
You are the other half of my soul –
You knew me better than anyone I know – better than anyone else to come, that’s for sure.
I never thought you’d leave
Despite all our differences and obstacles,
I thought we’d always be – somehow sticking around, fighting until the very end
Just you and me. Maybe I was dreaming; lost in my own little world
The reality was a lot harder – and I’m grateful to you for making me wake up and smell the turf
So much time has passed; it has been so long
How will I ever go on?
Everything reminds me of you – every place in this city has a memory of us stored away
Not a day goes by, not a street do i pass – I can recall the exact memory, what you said and how we had it all.
I remember your laughter the most; those gorgeous dimples on either side.
God! Why is it so hard for me to cry? I can’t cry.
The tears came out in spurts that first time
And now they’re somehow stuck inside; I can’t even talk about it
The pain, it makes me blind
To everything else.
I try to work and occupy my mind
But after the day ends, the dread returns with the night
I am all alone – you are no longer there.
We are no longer a team.
I miss our conversations, our laughter and intimacy –
the way we understand each other without the need to talk. We are connected, you and I.
I just wish I were the one you needed in your life.
I know there’s a lot more where this came from ;
but right now I can’t write much more.
It’s weird; I can’t speak aloud. No matter how hard the pain.
I don’t know what is going to happen next
All my plans have been laid to rest
Now there’s just this dense fog
And I can’t see
I don’t know what’s going to happen to me. But one thing is clear,
Wherever I go and forever long I live
I shall never forget you.
You took my heart… I don’t want it back.
Keep it; you treat it much better than I do.